Look for words

Equipment list:

Notestand

Silhouette

Water bottle

(Haha soundfile)

Ha ah ha ha ah ah ha ha ha ha ah ah

(Harking Hanne, inaudibly)

Sometimes they look at my name, and how it is spelled and when they call my name they say;

(Pause)

Hand

And I don’t respond, as I am not the end part of a persons arm but the beginning of a story, every time I speak. I am not a stump, a palm, a pointer on a clock indicating the time. I am not a helper, a hinter, a simple holder of anything, light nor heavy. I do not know the horses height by the use of my own length.

I sit and wait, for my name to be called out, as I am, not a hand, or a half, but a whole.

(Short pause)

Spouted

The experience of the body as a hole, is to choose what you let in, and what you let out. An eye is not an orifice, but a mouth is. So is a cunt, a crack, a nostril, there to be filled, with material as well as immaterial content, at its own, or at others will. The orifice is a sisyphus of its own. You can not own what is not your own, that is; the words of the others. Speaking is a shared experience, whether it resonates within your own ears or in front of an audience. The orifice can be an oracle, or a fissure, depending on the given situation. Speaking, in its own speed, in its own speech. Does speech own itself, when it leaves the body, behind? Does the spirit take the shape of the body, or forget about its visceral origin in its own visibility. Geist, spirit, soul, ghost, all living in a corporeal host. A voice that tries to explain itself too much loses its tongue. An eye is not an orifice, but a mouth is.

(Pause)

I myself am the stairway

We see so much and we want to be part of everything

Every thing

I, myself

Am an object

I, myself

Is a thing

I, myself

As an object

In motion

Emotions are muscles

Or is it memories

I can’t recall

Either way

They have the nerve

To enter at any moment

Unsolicited,

they flex

their flux

My house’s stairway is seized

with vertigo

My first ever vivid memory

Is falling down the stairs

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

Six

Seven

Eight

(Walking down the stairs)

And being caught by nobody

but surface itself

Gravity teaches us descent

Before ascent

Only pigs can fly

I myself

am the stairway

I learn so much and I want to be part of everything

The somethings

All things current

All these events

The world of things

The words of things

The word thing,

when spoken

resonates like a bell

its ending, reverberates

in the box-like-thing

you call

a skull

The stairway takes the measure of

its own emptiness

The thing

And its ding

Also resonates

with the being

and the wanting

and the longing

and the

The nerves know

The nerves know now

What the body didn’t

Hadn’t

Wasn’t

Isn’t

Can’t

These are terms for all the nothings

You flush them out like water

Humanised sap and bodily ooze

Sweating is forgetting

I feel so much and I want to be part of everything.

I feel so much and I want to be part of everything!

I feel so much and I want to be part of everything!!!

(Pause)

I myself,

A container

A lonely skull

Balancing on top of a spine

Vertebrae by vertebrae

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

I remember remembering memory

I remotely embody everybody

I reverberate, recognise, remorse

I embed every memory

Every pixel, morsel

Every source

I, myself

With time

Have learned how to descend a staircase

With grace

Despite gravity

Despite its force

the aha experience or

the haha experience

The italian yoga teacher says bend your H-elbows, grab your H-ankles and stretch your H-arms during class. But when she comes over to me she says: Anna, can you straighten your harm?

(Pause)

A rose is a rose

A rose is a rose is

A rose is a rose

A rose is a rose is

A hand gives a rose

Another hand takes

A rose is a rose

A rose is a prose

A rose is aroused

Aroused is a rose

Around is a round

Around is aroused

Aroused is aroused

Aroused is a spouse

A rose is a round

A rose is a rose

I suppose

Inhale

Exhale

Inhale

(Pause)

And so on.

The letter S- as experienced in seventeen sixty six

Being on the left hand,

left not right not dexter,

bad, perverse, corrupt.

Deviating from honesty.

Unfair.

To drink by small draughts

To drink in small quantities

As much as the mouth will hold

(Sip of water)

A drain

Anywhere, where corruption is gathered

Because that

From the time that

Ago: before this

To form the voice to melody

To utter sweet sounds inarticulately

To make any small or shrill noise

To tell in poetry

To relate

To celebrate

A woman born of the same parents, correlative to brother

One of the same kind, of the same office

A number of women of the same order

Single,

Not complex

Single,

Not compound

Single,

Individually

Particularly

Without partners or associates

Single,

Simply

Sincerely

The thread of the worm which later turns into a butterfly

The fluff

Soft

Tender

To deal in such matters

To declare by some token or sign

To mean

To express

To make known

The old word for sure

Or surely

Habitual taciturnity

Secrecy

Stillness

Not noise

Not mention

Not speaking

Mute

One

Not double

Not more than

One

Particular

Individual

Not compounded

Having no companion

Having no assistant

Not married

Not complicated

Not duplicated

Pure

Uncorrupt

Simple

Expressing only one, not plural

That in which one is opposed to

One

Alone, that of which there is but

One

The posture

Of sitting on a seat

The act

Of resting on a seat

The time which one exhibits oneself to a painter

A meeting of an assembly

A course or study

A time at which one sits without raising

Incubation

Twice three, one more than five

To be at six and seven is to be in a state of disorder and confusion

To be fixed

As an assembly

To be placed at the table

To exercise authority

To sit down

To begin a siege

To sit down

To rest

To sit down

To rest upon the buttocks

Placed with respect to everything else

Knowledge of any practise of art

To be knowing

To differ

The Wanting

Wanting knowledge

Of art

A small kettle,

Or boiler

Drink anything

Possible

The bone that encloses the head

it is made up of several pieces

which joined together

contains the brain as in a box

A whole

The heavens

The weather

Ethereal

Blue

Azure

Like the sky

Coloured like the sky

Coloured by the ether

A hole?

A whole

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LOOKING WHAT FOR LOOKING FOR LOOK

LOOK FOR WORDS

LOOK

LOOK FOR OR OR SORE LIP CHAPSTICK RENT CAP MONEY SPENT

MONEY SPENT MONEY PENNY MONEY EURO MONEY ANY SPEND IT HOW TO SPEND IT HOW TO SPEND IT HOW TO

MUST COST LESS

AT ALL COST

MUST COST LESS

AT ALL COST

MUST COST LESS

AT ALL COST

(Repeat)

MUST IT?

IS THERE HERE EVERYWHERE FAR NEAR HER HERE WHEN WE ARE HERE THERE WHEN WHAT THEN WHAT NOW THEN WHAT NOW WHAT NOW THEN WHAT WAR NOW THEN WHAT WAR THEN WHAT WAR THEN WHAT WARFARE WARFARE NO WAR IS FAIR

LOOK FOR WORDS

LOOK FORWARD

FUTURE FEAR FUTURE FEAR FUTURE FEAR NOW WHAT NOW AND THEN NOW AND AGAIN AND A HOLE AND AGAIN AND A HOLE AND AGAIN AND A HOLE AND AGAIN AND A HOLE A HOLE A CIRCLE.

WE GO ROUND.

LOOK FOR WORDS

WE GO ROUND

LOOK FORWARDS

AHEAD

A LINE

A CIRCLE

DOESN’T HAVE AN END

ITS A ROUND

ANY WAY

ITS A ROUND

A CIRCLE

ANYWAY

END AWAY

WE GO ROUND.

GO WHERE

LOOK FOR WORDS

LOOK FORWARDS

LOOK AHEAD

BEYOND YOUR OWN

FACE

A DEVICE

ADVICE

A VOICE

A VOID

AVOID

ADVICE

A VOICE

AVOID

A VOID

IT'S A MUDDY BIND

THIS BODY AND MIND

IS A MUDDY BIND

THIS VOICE OF MINE

IS A DEVICE DEFYING

V O I D S

ITS A FACE

IN FACT

THIS VOICE

IS A FACE

IF USED WISELY

THIS VOICE

AVOIDS ADVICE

IT'S A CHOICE

OF MINE

IT'S A CHOICE

BEHIND A VOICE

IT'S A FACE

DEFINING

TIME

TEMP

TID

TIME

TID

TEMP

TIME

TID

TING

TAR

TID

TING

TAR

TID

TING

TAR

TID

TAKE

TIME

TID

TAKE

TIME

TAKE

TEMPS

TIME

IS NEVER MINE

IT IS A VOID

OF ITS OWN

OWNING ITS OWN

BODY AND MIND

ITS OWN

MUDDY BIND

AT TIMES

THIS VOICE

AVOIDS

THE

V O I D

BY SPEAKING

THIS VOICE

AND THE ADVICE

THAT COMES

WITH IT

IS DEVOID

OF TIME

IT'S A MUDDY BIND

THIS TIME OF MINE

THIS MINE IN TIME

IS SUSPENDING

NOT SPENDING

NOT MINE

ONE

IS MORE

THAN THE SUM

OF ONE’S

PARTS

HAND!

DO YOU MIND

SHOWING US

WHAT’S IN YOUR HANDS

DO YOU MIND

SHOWING THEM

PALMS, FLAT

UP AND UP

LIFE LINES

THIS MINE IN TIME

THIS MIND ALONE

WILL FIND THAT

THE HOUR HAND

ON THE CLOCK

IS LONGER THAN

YOUR

MIDDLE

FINGER

ITS A MOTHER BIND

THIS BODY AND MIND

THIS BODY OF MINE

ITS A MUDDY BIND

THIS MUDDY BIND

THIS MIND AND BODY

ITS A MOTHERS STORY

ITS A BIND BOUND

STRONGER

BY A STRING

REMOVED AT BIRTH

BUT STILL

LINGERS

AS A THOUGHT

WHAT IS THE MINE IN TIME

WHAT IS MEANT BEHIND

A CERTAIN SET OF WORDS

FITTED TO AN IMAGE

THE IMAGE EXPANDS

WHEN STRETCHED

BY ITS CORNERS

BY THE FORCE OF THE HAND

SO DOES THE MIND

THE MUDDY BIND

IT IS STRETCHED

BEYOND THE SURFACE

YOU MIGHT SPIT

WHILE AT IT

YOU MIGHT FIND

THAT THE IMAGE

DOESN’T FIT

A CERTAIN SET OF WORDS

NOW THAT IT IS EXPANDED

CONTRACT

A CONTRACT

IS A BIND

WHICH THE

RIGHT HAND

SIGNS

WHILE THE LEFT MOUTH

SIGHS IN DISCONTENT

THIS CONTENT

IS MEANT

FOR THE INTENDED RECIPIENT EXCLUSIVELY

PLEASE DELETE IF OBTAINED IN ERROR

AND MOVE ON

MOVE ON

THERE’S NOTHING

TO SEE

HEAR

Look for words was performed last on the 25th September 2022 at Muzeum Narodowe w Warszawie / The National Museum in Warsaw.